Postpartum depression, a topic most moms don’t discuss. Did you know that there are over 3 million cases of PPD in the US a year?
I’ve struggled with PPD for the past year. I was diagnosed when my son was about 6 months old. They tell you that some of the signs are extreme sadness, difficulty connecting with your infant, loss of interest in activities. I didn’t experience any of this. I felt rage all the time, any little inconvenience made me unexplainably angry. I didn’t understand why for the longest time. In my mind, I thought my anger was justified. I thought everyone was out to purposely make me angry. I didn’t receive help as soon as I should have because PPD never crossed my mind.
Finally after one argument left me in tears and my house in disarray, I realized that what I was feeling wasn’t normal. I sought help and the doctor confirmed that I did have postpartum depression. Since then, I’ve been on different medication to help balance my hormones.
It’s been a long journey and it’s taken a toll on me. I’ve been Baker Acted twice since then but am slowly on the road to recovery. I’m taking more time for myself, doing things I enjoy doing. I make it a point to put makeup on everyday, watch a YouTube video and try and keep my plants alive (I love plants but keeping them alive seems to be an issue for me). It’s helped keep my sanity in check.
If you’re struggling, please get help. Depression not only affects you, but everyone else around you. Take time out of your day to read a book, go outside or even just take a shower. You’ll be surprised at how much that helps. You’re not alone.